CHANGES

For sure there is.

Comparing the photo before and after I enter uni, I sensed that there’s for sure, changes in me, for a better me or vice-versa? I am pretty sure which one it is.

Nowadays, I noticed that I am becoming more random. People whom I think will not click on my first impression, could easily communicate and joke together now. People who seems impressive, erm, after think twice , no, it’s incomparable . I can be very excited when we are going out for food, not to those high-end restraunts but hawker stalls. Too long of ‘starvation’ I guess..LOL.And most importantly, I think I am becoming LAME. Stuffs that I wouldn’t even bothered to raise my lips nor cheek last time, I would now laugh very hard at it. And it’s funny at that time but when I think of it later, I will think that they are nuisances.LOL. Sometimes I am even talking some pointless stuffs. Last time, we teased people skillfully Haha! My mentality level has dropped..Help! I think I need more readings, and only readings could help. Gosh…

And I also realized that I am becoming more straightforward in giving comments or compliments.You will be amazed by my body language at that moment mann., as in I will laugh at their new hairstyles or giving comments, like,Haha, your pants is way too above your waist.. But of course they are guys, but still, I am gonna correct myself from that.I will never let myself be like that again.

These are all the influences ok.

Well, my the other me is like telling ;Pey Yi, change yourself when you can’t change the world..Becoming ones has no wrong, you have to survive and adapt! But…...:( Aiks.. Yea, I have to admit that, I get influenced by people very fast. I still remembered I kept improving myself to be of the same level as my admirer last time, and guess what? I have improved in a way, compared to Form 5.

My inner self is like telling me, Pey Yi, resist the changes and become your own self like before,which is more matured in whole and not that childish. Please be yourself adverse the environment. Perhaps, I see myself as TOO perfect before that or maybe I am being stereotypic all these while since I enter uni? After all, I am not that good.

And now, I think I am going down the hill,not from the perspective of studies but in whole. If such is the case, perhaps I am in a better environment in the future and I will become somebody again? Who knows.

People always experience changes in their life,either consciously or unconsciously. Do select the good characteristics and behavior and combines them with yours..Also, learn from other people’s mistakes but not influenced by them. Erm, it is always easier said than done.

Enough of the inner conflicts, have to get back to my computer programming again ;(